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Name: Kimberly
Gender: Female
Interests: Jesus, reading, spending time with people I like
Expertise: People, although I'm not an extrovert
Occupation: Other
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Member Since:
12/7/2005
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| I just crossed over into the land of 30 four minutes ago. Today is my 30th birthday!! Happy Birthday to me!! I don't have too much to say about it, no exceptional deep thoughts about turning 30. Just that I think my 30's will be good. God is growing me. I know now more than ever that he has been ordering my steps and that he is using everything for my good. I'm glad that he has chosen me for his purposes and that I have the joy of knowing him and having him in my life. He is the best thing in the world! So I rest in the knowledge that God is still directing my paths and that he will keep me in my 30's as he has in my 20's. My 20's were hard. A lot of growth, a lot of figuring out who I am (and I'm still in process), learning to be more confident in me or satisfied with myself, and learning who I am in God and who God is to me. So I'm hopefully and excited for what the thirties hold. I believe its a lot of good. After learning more about me and God, now I just want to walk it out. Want to give me a present for my birthday? Then pray for me. That I receive any healing that I may need and that I would walk in wholeness and confidence. Less mistakes, more fruit, and more enjoying life and enjoying my heavenly Father and enjoying myself. Thanks.  | | |
| God is a good God! He is my strength and my portion forever. It really doesn't matter so much what I want but what God wants for me. He gives me strength to make it. Strength to walk out what he calls me too. I woke up this morning feeling kind of down but I cried out to the Lord. And as the word says he is near to the brokenhearted. That he hears their cry. And I know that he heard me. I was asking for something. And I know that he heard that request, but then I began to praise God like an old school black person and just shout out praise to God and it was as I was praising that the realization came that its not about me, but about God and that as I praised I could feel his Spirit strengthening me and giving me the power I need to walk strong in him and to be who he wants me to be and walk out what he wants me to walk out. I do hope and desire things but still it comes back to its not about me and what I want but about him and I have to trust him and accept what he gives me. God is good. He is my keeper and my strength and in him my hope rest. Just thought I would share this testimony. Maybe it can help someone else. Be blessed y'all. | | |
| Have you ever felt like you were the odd ball or that you were the odd man out. I'm sitting here at team meeting and have felt once again how I relate to no one here or that they don't relate to me. I feel like I'm always thinking on a different stream or on a different plane from them and I think I'm finally like I'm over it. As the only black woman on staff i deal with different things, wrestle with different things, the students I minister to deal with a lot harder things and for real I'm just like I'm over it. I'm over thinking about things from a white perspective, praying about things from a white perspective or watching the things I say when I pray or when we are studying scripture because I don't want them to think bad of me. God made me black for a reason, I think the way I think for a reason, and I know that things, desires, and passions that God has put in me are there for a reason and I will be me. I guess its the odd balls who change the world. So Lord then use me. | | |
| | Hope - To wish for something with expectation of its fulfillment.
- Archaic. To have confidence; trust.
verb (used with object) | 6. | to look forward to with desire and reasonable confidence. |
| 7. | to believe, desire, or trust: I hope that my work will be satisfactory. |
–verb (used without object) | 8. | to feel that something desired may happen: We hope for an early spring. |
| 9. | Archaic. to place trust; rely (usually fol. by in). |
Psalm 43:5
5 Why am I discouraged?
Why is my heart so sad?
I will put my hope in God!
I will praise him again—
my Savior and my God! Psalm 39:7
7 And so, Lord, where do I put my hope?
My only hope is in you. Psalm 33:22
22 Let your unfailing love surround us, Lord,
for our hope is in you alone. Psalm 33:18 18 But the Lord watches over those who fear him,
those who rely on his unfailing love. Psalm 31:24
24 So be strong and courageous,
all you who put your hope in the Lord! |
Have you ever had a hard time hoping? That's me right now. I'm supposed to hope. I keep hearing that. It has to do with expecting something. I'm having a hard time hoping because of fear. Fear that what I hope for won't happen so why hope. Fear that its a trick, not a trick, but it doesn't mean what I think it means. So like I'm hoping for something specific and the Lord just means hope in him to do good in my life but not the specific thing I hope for. But then its like, well ...I should just want what the Lord wants to bring and not what I want. Isn't it weird? You think you have something down but you don't. You think you are spiritually mature, but maybe you're not as spiritually mature as you think. I thought that I trusted the Lord. He is good. I know that full well. Pray for my heart to trust the Lord. Trust in the Lord. And to hope in His goodness, mercy, and love. | | |
| Ok so now I've come to a place of brokeness. I've done things the way I want and things aren't turning out so good so now its time to really be surrendered to God and really try to follow him everyday so that (1). I can just be following him and experiencing real life and i guess the joy that comes from living with God. (2). So that my life will begin to work. (3). I'll be more loving. Let the will of the Lord be done.Everything is yours Lord, do with it whatever you want. Amen | | |
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